tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3616444983796712582024-03-05T16:10:10.125+08:00心。事。诗許多事情,總是在經歷以後才會懂得,一如感情:錯過了,遺憾了,才知道其實生活並不需要這麼多無謂的執著。佩诗^^http://www.blogger.com/profile/09686046098941172709noreply@blogger.comBlogger152125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-361644498379671258.post-48352443062171567082013-12-16T00:42:00.001+08:002013-12-16T00:42:36.709+08:00幸福的忘记<p dir="ltr">一路走来,不容易。<br>
关关难过关关过,是他陪我帮我度过了很多关。<br>
可是到了这一关,我却不想坚持了,远距离,还是我的死穴。<br>
身边突然少了一个熟悉的人,就好象蒙着双眼走路,突然摸不着方向。所有的回忆会无端端浮现在脑海。忙,是停止心疼的方法。<br>
变质了的感情,无论怎么努力,就是回不去那种味道。<br>
被放手的人,很痛;选择放手的人,一样痛。<br></p>
<p dir="ltr">幸福的忘记,贴切的歌词。<br>
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佩诗^^http://www.blogger.com/profile/09686046098941172709noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-361644498379671258.post-40720498503463571882013-07-31T22:34:00.001+08:002013-07-31T22:34:09.366+08:00始作俑者<p dir="ltr">始作俑者<br>
形容我很贴切<br>
心伤心痛,也是我自作自受<br>
听说如果不要眼泪往下流就抬头拼命往上望<br>
我尽量,尽量的说服自己,告诉自己,应该做什么<br>
幻想全世界的人都责备我,当身边的人都怪责我,我应该只可以无声哭泣吧。<br>
庆幸的是还有一位在远方的朋友听到我的心声<br>
做自己喜欢做的事?这个世界有太多的拘束限制<br>
我希望我的心是石头做的,不会有感觉,没有任何牵挂<br>
好了。。。继续全世界觉的我应该继续的故事。。<br></p>
佩诗^^http://www.blogger.com/profile/09686046098941172709noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-361644498379671258.post-8240802050567335612013-04-07T02:17:00.001+08:002013-04-07T02:17:29.333+08:00无奈<div><p>满心的期待<br>
疲惫的一整天过后觉得可以轻松的时候<br>
真的,一句带有讽刺性的话就可以让我感觉好像玩跳楼机般,那颗心急速的往下掉,因为是从你嘴巴讲出来的<br>
深呼吸,像要把无奈都呼出来<br>
难道就不能开开心心的聊吗?为什么要晦气的回答或质问?不是一次,两次,是很多次</p>
<p>我要的很简单。。没有要固定每晚多长的谈话,就算不谈也是可以。。一句关心的话已让我觉得很舒服了。。</p>
<p>以为,你是最了解我的,原来,最了解我的人一直不存在。。<br>
真的。。真的很难过</p>
<p>以为,距离远了,心更近了<br>
是这样吗?</p>
</div>佩诗^^http://www.blogger.com/profile/09686046098941172709noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-361644498379671258.post-27331802236194077742013-04-01T22:44:00.001+08:002013-04-01T22:44:11.991+08:00忍<div><p>学会忍,学会吞,学会当若无其事,学会忘记,学习的过程不简单,有时候讲话也许是最好发泄的轨道,可是不是每个人都能在同样的轨道用同样的速度行驶,反效果的话,就会脱轨了。。<br>
就如吃东西一样,吃太多也会反胃呕吐;忍太多,就会崩溃。。<br>
可是你不讲,别人哪里知道你心里不舒服?<br>
可是我就是很希望有这么的一个人。。明白我。。<br>
有时候累积到一个地步时,就很想把心里的空间空出一点,但就偏偏找不到那个可以分享的人,而你又有什么理由要别人听你这种微不足道的所谓的心事。。</p>
<p>身边自私自利的人太多了。。<br>
有时候也独立到有点辛苦,还是那句,害怕习惯后的不习惯。。<br>
加油吧。。</p>
</div>佩诗^^http://www.blogger.com/profile/09686046098941172709noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-361644498379671258.post-29979449462648514732013-03-05T00:10:00.006+08:002013-03-05T00:10:38.562+08:00允许我发疯原谅我在这里发泄我心里低潮的情绪,然后我才可以继续新的一天!我才可以在别人面前演好自己的角色!<br />
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我只想大喊!<br />
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<span style="color: red; font-size: x-large;">我要疯了!!!!!</span>佩诗^^http://www.blogger.com/profile/09686046098941172709noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-361644498379671258.post-39036569487522521142013-03-03T23:36:00.004+08:002013-03-03T23:36:46.782+08:00微笑喜怒哀乐,微笑应该是最“有益身心” 的。<div>
假的微笑又如何?</div>
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人家说,我笑点很低。</div>
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我说,其实要说我笑点高也是可以,我只是不想错过任何一个可以笑的时候。</div>
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人大了,笑的机会会随着减少。</div>
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因为烦恼多了,为工作烦啊,为身边的人烦啊,大小事都乱烦一通。</div>
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生活真的不简单。</div>
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在这个城市里,看到很多不同披着羊皮的狼,很多笑里藏刀的人。</div>
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尤其做QS这一行,逃不过钱这个讨厌鬼。</div>
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就是因为钱,所以我会在这里,</div>
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就是因为钱,所以常常被client shoot。</div>
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被shoot了还要笑到很虚假,声音还要礼貌到我自己都不能接受。</div>
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是不是假得不得了?</div>
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能怪谁? </div>
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我要忍,因为要坚持。</div>
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可是,有时候又会觉得很lost。。</div>
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忍什么? 坚持的又是什么?</div>
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这种情况常常出现。</div>
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有时候假到我忍受不了,甚至有点讨厌自己,甚至很想大发一场脾气,很想无理取闹,很想乱骂一通,很想撕破所有的面具。</div>
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老板,永远是对的;</div>
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顾客,更是不会错。</div>
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错的就是我们这种为了每个月的薪水,很便宜的人。</div>
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全世界的人都觉得这一行的工作范围很简单。</div>
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我只能说:有苦说不出。</div>
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我绝不低头,绝不妥协, 绝不放弃,绝不被人看不起。</div>
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*写完了,继续戴上微笑的面具。</div>
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佩诗^^http://www.blogger.com/profile/09686046098941172709noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-361644498379671258.post-64376882069306759492012-12-30T23:12:00.002+08:002012-12-30T23:12:23.459+08:00告别2012年2012 年,可以说是很累的一年,从大学的最后一个时期到实习的三个月,从还是学生的游子变成新加坡“外劳”。<br />
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大学的最后一年,最忙的还是学业,还好在毕业前还能有一个学期拿到个dean list,算是对的起自己一点。实习的三个月,虽然工作量不是实习生该有的,第一个周末就要回去加班,可是感恩,那是一间很有亲切感的公司。无论是大学时为thesis快要疯掉的时候还是实习期那段日子,虽然只有上班下班,有时候还会加班;很庆幸我有一个很好的倾诉对象,他还是我的出气筒。<br />
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十月,毕业了。从小就很羡慕看到别人戴着四方帽和家人拍全家福,没有想到那时候觉得很遥远的梦想竟然实现了。那个感觉真的非常感动,有爱我的和我爱的家人,朋友还有我亲爱的给我的祝福,当我被抛上空十次,喜悦的心情完全掩盖了我的畏高症。<br />
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这一年也做了一个决定,第一次去外国面试(虽然只是隔个海而已)。一个人搭飞机,一个人胆粗粗的乱闯。为的就是生活,为那个2.5 的兑换率。。<br />
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这一年,在很多地方留下了足迹。还有两个人的脚印。<br />
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在这一年结束前很想和他说谢谢,谢谢在2012年陪我熬过我最难熬的final year到我选择离开马来西亚,谢谢你的支持,无论是行动上还是言语上,都让我觉得还好有你。你每一次妥当的安排都让我可以暂时的休息,所以在你面前我选择懒惰。因为你,我学会了依赖,更加清楚安全感对我而言是那么的重要。只有你可以忍受我的坏脾气,我的不耐烦。你对我的好,不是理所当然,可是我就是幸运的当我开心时,有人陪我分享,当我难过时,有个肩膀靠。甚至你会让我忘记独立是什么。远距离的爱情让我再次记得独立原来是这么一回事,我不是粘男人的女生,可是我也阻止不了因为思念而一直留个不停的眼泪。他很傻,有时候会让我气的翻白眼,或者是一拳挥过去。哈哈。。<br />
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爱一个人不是因为他是谁,而是因为在他面前我可以做回自己。<br />
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<br />佩诗^^http://www.blogger.com/profile/09686046098941172709noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-361644498379671258.post-13294723945705505782012-12-25T15:56:00.001+08:002012-12-25T16:25:04.141+08:00一个人生活新加坡<br />
差不多两个月了<br />
可是感觉上却过得好慢好慢<br />
不是不习惯,不是不适应,不是第一次离开家<br />
有朋友,有室友<br />
却还是觉得是自己一个人在生活<br />
偶尔的短聚,偶尔的购物<br />
聚完了,购完了<br />
心灵也随着空了<br />
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忍与坚持<br />
没什么大不了<br />
只要两边嘴角向上翘<br />
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如果一切都要回到原点的话,我宁愿不曾拥有过<br />
如果两个人的影子过后会变成一个人的孤影,我宁愿一个人走<br />
如果那个能让我依靠的肩膀会消失,我宁愿继续的独立<br />
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每一次的再见,我都很尽量强忍的把眼泪吞下去,把笑容挂在脸上因为我长大了<br />
每一次一个人的时候,都要一直说服自己:习惯一个人了<br />
我骄傲,不喜欢主动要求别人帮忙,我喜欢全部事情往自己肩膀上扛<br />
肩膀越来越重了<br />
我知道会有人很愿意与我分担,可是我真的很害怕习惯习惯<br />
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聚而散,散而聚<br />
路是自己选的<br />
生活机械化一点也许让自己好过一点<br />
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<br />佩诗^^http://www.blogger.com/profile/09686046098941172709noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-361644498379671258.post-42052859561562850822012-06-12T14:52:00.000+08:002012-06-12T14:54:55.656+08:00允许我emo请允许我emo<br />
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就那一小段的时间</div>
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其实应该要看开</div>
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考试考了整十七年</div>
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应该要麻木的</div>
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考到差不差要等成绩出来才知道</div>
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问题是我自己过不到我自己心里那关</div>
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不会做不是没有读,该读的我都读了,该背的都有背</div>
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结果打开试卷一看,傻眼,没有看过的图。。</div>
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心想这四个小时一定很得空了,不会做!</div>
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深呼吸一下,冷静一下,慢慢看,慢慢去了解。。</div>
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没办法了,用自己的理解能力了解了那个图,动笔了</div>
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一个新的东西,要花的时间要更多</div>
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之前考的四个小时已经是勉强足够罢了</div>
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这次的勉强做完90%,有40 %是因为知道时间不够所以有超快的速度做完的</div>
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不敢想象错的有多离谱,</div>
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对,不是我一个人不会,差不多全班的人都不会</div>
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可是那关我什么事?</div>
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我不会,是事实</div>
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我有我对自己的要求</div>
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起码我整份考卷答到整整齐齐</div>
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起码我可以全部做完</div>
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可是,我就是没有达到自己的目标</div>
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出来的成绩是另外一回事,至少我要对得起自己</div>
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仿佛没有人能了解</div>
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为什么我要为这事情emo</div>
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为什么我只是想讲一下罢了,却没有能倾诉的对象</div>
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或者是有个人可以和我乱聊一番,聊到我忘了。</div>
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这对我来说不是一件小事</div>
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所以请容许我emo</div>
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<br /></div>佩诗^^http://www.blogger.com/profile/09686046098941172709noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-361644498379671258.post-58054361443973782552012-06-01T19:52:00.001+08:002012-06-01T19:57:05.409+08:00the day after the lasti thought, i thought the last assign, it can be finished without rushing, i will have no chance to rush anymore...and yet, "rushing" is still with me..for me, one third of the total time spent for assignment is not my works..i mean for the group works..i do really not understand why people can just left their works in such a "never mind" way..well, im still thanks god that im not same group with "horse" gang...@@<br />
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submitted the last assignment of my university life, what next?<br />
study week..3 subjects 10 hours..is too less? honestly, i never face my notes for the whole sem..i feeling scared but the tension level is still can be handled..because of immune already?<br />
is too tired after the long term fighting? mentally tired? physically tired?<br />
watching drama.....is the thing that i never do at here for these three years except at my home sweet home..<br />
i changed after the last assignment submission...first time during study week...<br />
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anyway, please ohm up and fighting to the end...<br />
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anyone understand me?<br />
im not qualified to ask this because im not really understand even one person beside me..<br />
do not expect people totally understand u, only u understand the best of urself..<br />
too bad, im the 100% scorpio, is so desperately need someone to understand me deeply without saying anything..even though it may ridiculous..<br />
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sometimes it is worse when feel pek chek with myself with everything goes wrong and out of my planned...emotional is always the one that i should improve..people who are cheerful should influence me for improvement..<br />
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offer and acceptance....<br />
when u offer it, and offered a few times without acceptance by another, it will just left with speechless..<br />
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<br />佩诗^^http://www.blogger.com/profile/09686046098941172709noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-361644498379671258.post-39299137306068163652012-05-24T18:26:00.004+08:002012-05-24T18:27:05.557+08:00不可思议<span style="color: red;">最后一个星期</span><br />
<span style="color: red;">我的大学生涯</span><br />
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<span style="color: #b45f06;">不可思议,这一个sem来到句号点</span><br />
<span style="color: #b45f06;">忙到我从来没试过的忙</span><br />
<span style="color: #b45f06;">从来没试过熬过这么多的夜</span><br />
<span style="color: #b45f06;">从来没试过完全没时间在宿舍和你们玩乐</span><br />
<span style="color: #b45f06;">那种压力想到也害怕</span><br />
<span style="color: #b45f06;">不知道自己从哪里来的毅力可以一个一个解决</span><br />
<span style="color: #b45f06;">plannner满满的</span><br />
<span style="color: #b45f06;">所有的submission date</span><br />
<span style="color: #b45f06;">熬过了</span><br />
<span style="color: #b45f06;">从来没试过累到每次睡觉像昏迷似的</span><br />
<span style="color: #b45f06;">从来没试过这么爱玩的自己,竟然可以连玩也没有心情</span><br />
<span style="color: #b45f06;">不可思议</span><br />
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<span style="color: #0c343d;">不可思议,我的thesis完成了</span><br />
<span style="color: #0c343d;">从一开始,到选好题目,整个过程到最后的印刷</span><br />
<span style="color: #0c343d;">好多好多的困难,也许只有我自己懂</span><br />
<span style="color: #0c343d;">它不是一份简单的论文,放下去的心血,牺牲的睡眠,完全是有血,有泪,有汗</span><br />
<span style="color: #0c343d;">它对我来说是有生命的</span><br />
<span style="color: #0c343d;">因为我真的很用心去做</span><br />
<span style="color: #0c343d;">出来的结果,不很好,也有很多破绽</span><br />
<span style="color: #0c343d;">它不是最好,但。。。。</span><br />
<span style="color: #0c343d;">我引以为傲的是,对它的认识是0,到最后我对它有了一定的认识,有了一份感情,我可以打破极限,不管怎样,论文还是完成了</span><br />
<span style="color: #0c343d;">是傻?是笨?是白痴?是好胜?接受这比生菜更不熟的题目?</span><br />
<span style="color: #0c343d;">我只是觉得既然接受了,只能做到最好。</span><br />
<span style="color: #0c343d;">到现在,还是觉得不可思议</span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;">不可思议,三年就这样过去了</span><br />
<span style="color: #4c1130;">好多好多的回忆</span><br />
<span style="color: #4c1130;">多到当所有的回忆涌出来时,我可以发呆超过一个小时不止</span><br />
<span style="color: #4c1130;">我相信自己在这过程中有那么一点变成熟了</span><br />
<span style="color: #4c1130;">虽然本人还是看起来不像final year</span><br />
<span style="color: #4c1130;">可是,从这点点滴滴,我学到很多很多</span><br />
<span style="color: #4c1130;">忙忙碌碌的,没有时间emo</span><br />
<span style="color: #4c1130;">我选择不去面对不舍的感觉</span><br />
<span style="color: #4c1130;">想要的只是那静悄悄的走,不带走一片云彩</span><br />
<span style="color: #4c1130;">带走的只是那份厚厚的回忆</span><br />
<span style="color: #4c1130;">潇洒的想一想,这只是一个过程,与其婆妈徘徊在不舍当中,不如去面对即将来临的选择与挑战</span><br />
<span style="color: #4c1130;">“不要emo” 告诉自己说</span><br />
<span style="color: #4c1130;">如果可以做到,真的就不可思议了</span><br />
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<span style="color: purple;">更不可思议的是,竟然真的可以忙到最后一天</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">连study week都要交assignment</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">不可思议</span><br />
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<span style="color: purple;">加油咯~~</span><br />
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<br />佩诗^^http://www.blogger.com/profile/09686046098941172709noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-361644498379671258.post-72249118364114343102012-05-03T12:21:00.000+08:002012-05-03T12:47:04.419+08:00无题<span style="color: #741b47;">向四月说声再见</span><br />
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<span style="color: #741b47;">assignments清了一点</span></div>
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<span style="color: #741b47;">thesis draft 交了可是不complete的</span></div>
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<span style="color: #741b47;">之前太多deadline加在一起,结果我熬夜了差不多十天,平均一天睡三个小时多。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #741b47;">结果有好几次十多次的wake up call,我完全听不到,醒不来。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #741b47;">最高纪录33次,电话都没电了,我还睡到像死猪一样。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #741b47;">睡到好像晕去了的感觉,也许被人抬走也不懂发生什么事吧。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #741b47;">一切结束了吗? 还没。。。还有一个月,加油吧~</span></div>
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<span style="color: #741b47;">还有很多deadline要一个一个冲~</span></div>
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<span style="color: #073763;">看了《孩子不坏》。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #073763;">一部让我第一次在戏院掉最多眼泪的电影。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #073763;">哭的我不想再看下去了。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #073763;">还是因为要抒发压力所以哭不停?</span></div>
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<span style="color: #073763;">可是真的很写实。。很感人。。比起情情爱爱的戏,这戏的层次高很多。。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #073763;">强力推荐。。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #990000;">每次看到她,就有很大的压迫感。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #990000;">因为每天都有新花招,天天新鲜。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #990000;">她是一个好的老师,可是却是把我们挤到去墙角的老师。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #990000;">thesis和project的coordinator。。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #990000;">真的很重。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #990000;">那一天,一位lecturer私底下说:知道你们这个sem真的太赶了,很stressful,你们不是running machine,好好休息下再继续吧。。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #990000;">我听到时,差点控制不了在眼眶里打转的眼泪。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #990000;">终于,有lecturer是了解的。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #990000;">终于,有lecturer肯承认我们已经压力到某个很遥远的境界。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #990000;">而不是像其他lecturer一样,只会批评我们,我们的time management。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #990000;">今天,她见我们时,说了一句:"many of u no finish the analysis part, what happened on your time management?"</span></div>
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<span style="color: #990000;">都是我们的错。。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #990000;">我们已经plan好好时间表,是谁最爱last minute给tasks,然后又要我们在time constraint的情况下呕出来??</span></div>
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<span style="color: #990000;">我的faculty的特点是每个lecturer都喜欢last minute,他们都以为我们只拿他的那几个credit hours。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #990000;">很刺激吗?</span></div>
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再来,我亲爱的组员。</div>
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全部东西在他手上,他竟然可以睡不醒。</div>
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这么重要的事情,竟然不把它当一回事。</div>
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不零分,也会扣分!</div>
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打电话给他的另外一个:“u baru bangun ke?tak apa,u mandi dulu,baru datang hantar."</div>
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shyt!!!!</div>
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为什么他们可以这么steady???</div>
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lecturer已经讲了要给零分!!</div>
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你们不当一回事,不要把我牵涉进去!</div>
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为什么只有我急得像热窝上的蚂蚁?为什么只有我在担心?</div>
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为什么每次坐东西可以这么随便?????</div>
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姓马的都是一个样!</div>
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<span style="color: #7f6000;">一点小插曲。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #7f6000;">觉得失望。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #7f6000;">不知道为什么有点小难过。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #7f6000;">本来满心期待,很开心的一天,最后竟然这样散场。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #7f6000;">笑不出来了。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #7f6000;">我知道我有错,所以我一直说对不起。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #7f6000;">换回来的一句气话。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #7f6000;">我的紧张,我的不知所措,他看不到。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #7f6000;">那真的那么重要吗?</span></div>
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<span style="color: #7f6000;">原来他还是不懂。。</span></div>
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<span style="color: #7f6000;">那一幕一直一直浮现在我脑海。</span></div>
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欢迎这浓浓气息的母月份。</div>
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手上还很多事情没解决。</div>
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告诉自己,无论怎样,这个星期一定要回家。最多带全部东西回家做。</div>
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不管怎样,一定要回。</div>
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回去一个了解我的家。</div>
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永远撑我的家人。</div>佩诗^^http://www.blogger.com/profile/09686046098941172709noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-361644498379671258.post-10467531432006697432012-04-23T10:57:00.003+08:002012-04-23T10:57:48.599+08:00-------有好多天晚上没有好好的睡<br />
或者应该说是不眠的夜晚<br />
有好几次是累到有要晕倒的感觉<br />
有好几次是可以爱睡到在键盘上打字到一半可以睡着<br />
靠的是意志<br />
一直告诉自己不累,不会累<br />
一直告诉自己还有一点,很快可以完成<br />
睡少一点就可以了<br />
那一天,有点撑不住的感觉,手不停的发抖,脚有点站不稳<br />
那是我身体叫我去休息的呼唤<br />
只要事情可以做完,我不介意敖多少个夜晚<br />
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还好,当熬夜时,不是一个人的敖,不是一个人默默的赶<br />
我讨厌一个人的夜晚,想念那温暖的家<br />
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<br />佩诗^^http://www.blogger.com/profile/09686046098941172709noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-361644498379671258.post-192831026794397152012-04-18T00:32:00.003+08:002012-04-18T00:38:32.779+08:00--------i need someone to guide me to the right track<div>i really do not know how to proceed my works</div><div>i tried</div><div>but i really no idea on it</div><div>what should i do?</div><div>who can i say to?</div><div>im telling myself, im not tired at all</div><div>only myself know me the best</div><div>gal, u should be tough</div><div>take it easy</div><div>keep ur tears and cheers</div>佩诗^^http://www.blogger.com/profile/09686046098941172709noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-361644498379671258.post-32564612751272943272012-04-16T20:42:00.007+08:002012-04-16T21:39:45.301+08:00rubbish proposal<div style="text-align: left;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 16px; ">people always say time is under your control</span> </div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">time management and planning are important</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">time constraint is just an excuse</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><br /></div><div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">alot of times are putting on that</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><span style="font-size: 100%; ">though it is over and it should be over</span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">but in fact it is not</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">i did put effort on it</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">well, may be other people put more than me</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">feeling sad...abit...when the works need to be upgraded again </div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">i really do not feel like to do it anymore, already put too much of time on it</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">so now how many sleepless night again? or reduce how many</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "> sleeping hours?</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">i totally tension...tension to the maximum</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">tension with the works that i hate, that i really not interested with</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">in fact, i still have to face it everyday and keep telling myself "u can do it", "u like it"</div><br class="Apple-interchange-newline"></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><img src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiIEoiYk9aun9xBhy6kSXKyfAczgQKohyIWjPUoydEbIAxeHEShNqdOi0oYWe4R2-5D6Tda6Zarj1QYDa1vaLsSL0J0daYYMXH2QzW8nT_QdtHq40ZZQB7LEb0HyJI2G2O6uP2l-ESmuQ5m/s320/2012-04-12+10.51.01_%25E5%2589%25AF%25E6%259C%25AC.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5731989914814302786" style="display: block; margin-top: 0px; margin-right: auto; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: auto; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 257px; " /></div><div style="text-align: center;">can i just left it don't upgrade it? it may just a rubbish proposal for all the examiners</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><br /></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">i has planned, i planned eveything, planned for my time to meet all the deadlines</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">planning is nothing without implementation</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">i know about this</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">i implemented it and even not dare to go for what i wish to do even just go out for a dinner with the feeling of guilty when it cannot be finished on time</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">not dare to go home to see my lovely family although i miss them so so much</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">im not genius and so hope that i am </div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><br /></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">struggling for thesis and at the same time there are non stop coming tasks</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">2 more weeks for the draft</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">but now what is my findings?</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">i can finish it if and only if i have a sleepless body </div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">if and only if im a robotic human</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">how i wish there is 48 hours per day</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">im not giving excuses but i am human</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><span style="font-size: 100%; ">i wish can work non-stop also without the feeling of tiredness</span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><br /></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><br /></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">she told me," all these are just the process that u have to go through, take it easy, when u free abit, come back home, i cook something delicious for u"</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">he told me," no need to worry about us, focus on ur works, the most important is able to graduate"</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">the little gal told me," i know u very stress, come, i tell u some jokes"</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">im fighting for them....</div>佩诗^^http://www.blogger.com/profile/09686046098941172709noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-361644498379671258.post-65838449214156048972012-04-15T18:56:00.003+08:002012-04-15T19:58:39.726+08:00boring life<span ><span style="font-size: 100%;">last semester</span></span><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">and my life is just too boring<div><br /><div>wake up</div><div>brush teeth</div><div>do my stuffs</div><div>go to class</div><div>lunch time?</div><div>class again maybe</div><div>do my stuffs</div><div>dinner time?</div><div>take bath</div><div>continue to do my stuffs</div><div>go to sleep</div><div><br /></div><div>it just like a cycle,everyday it repeating and repeating</div><div>it totally not my type and im totally not that type</div><div>and it forced me to change</div><div>change temporarily</div><div>for all the hell of stuffs</div><div><br /></div><div>the life is dry and dull</div><div>i wish to escape everything </div><div>i wish to run away</div><div>to do something that i really wish to do and im really enjoy with</div><div>if im alone</div><div>if i do not have any burden</div><div><br /></div><div>i have no choice to choose which color for my life now</div><div>no, there are 3 choices for me, black, white and may be grey</div><div>i should believe that what i did today, i will feel grateful on the next days</div><div><br /></div><div>life is wonderful if i think it is</div><div>after 2 months,freedom will come back with me</div><div>and i do miss it very much</div><div>i feel breathless with the jail</div><div>i wish to fly, fly to a far far place</div><div>every corner of the world with my footprint</div><div><br /></div><div><span style="font-size: 100%; ">be patient, be hardworking</span></div><div>that are what i should to be</div></div></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><br /></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><br /></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; text-align: center; "><span >BUT, </span></div><div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; text-align: center; "><span >i still want to shout</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span ><br /></span></div><span ><div style="text-align: center;">"MY LIFE IS TOO BORING!!!!"</div></span></div>佩诗^^http://www.blogger.com/profile/09686046098941172709noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-361644498379671258.post-18461471600458046712012-04-12T00:41:00.003+08:002012-04-12T00:51:46.681+08:00催眠以前熬夜是个习惯<div>现在熬夜却是折磨</div><div><br /></div><div>老了</div><div><br /></div><div>后遗症</div><div>头昏脑胀</div><div>脸要烂掉</div><div><br /></div><div>很累</div><div>没有终点的累</div><div><br /></div><div>有人说过</div><div>做自己喜欢做的事情从来不会觉得累</div><div><br /></div><div>我很清楚</div><div>由始至终我从来没停止讨厌过</div><div>不断的催眠</div><div>也有醒来的一天</div><div>然而</div><div>却没有被允许停下脚步的一天</div><div><br /></div><div>继续</div><div><br /></div><div>继续自我催眠吧</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>题外话</div><div>*不喜欢</div><div>沉默中的我们*</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>佩诗^^http://www.blogger.com/profile/09686046098941172709noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-361644498379671258.post-73536738188234234952012-04-09T19:13:00.003+08:002012-04-09T19:27:06.515+08:00煎熬假期结束<div>别人都是这样post在fb</div><div><br /></div><div>我的假期?</div><div>没有回家</div><div>没有煲电视剧</div><div>没有做过自己想做的事情</div><div><br /></div><div>四天的沙巴之旅</div><div>坦白说</div><div>我没有享受到</div><div>没有真正大笑到</div><div>一直想着回来怎么办</div><div>东西做不完怎么办</div><div><br /></div><div>最近都觉得很冷很冷</div><div>很想回家享受那一丝的温暖</div><div><br /></div><div>很想大睡一觉</div><div>醒来时没有内疚感</div><div><br /></div><div>煎熬</div>佩诗^^http://www.blogger.com/profile/09686046098941172709noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-361644498379671258.post-42936186051154286082012-03-31T23:39:00.005+08:002012-04-01T00:13:09.265+08:00孤身作战很想快快做好一件事情<div>很想在能力范围内做好一样事情</div><div>许多的“很想”不是所能控制的</div><div><br /><div>时间有限</div><div>原本应该在这时候一起作战的组员却丢下烂摊子</div><div>跑去shoes fair</div><div>跑去与朋友gathering</div><div><br /></div><div>是应该要relax</div><div>可是请先完成应该完成的事</div><div>请学会分辨事情的轻重</div><div><br /></div><div>完成了你的分内事</div><div>所有事情弄妥了</div><div>我管你去哪里</div><div><br /></div><div><span style="font-size: 100%; ">很无奈</span></div><div><span style="font-size: 100%; ">一次又一次</span></div><div><span style="font-size: 100%; "><br /></span></div><div><span style="font-size: 100%; ">孤身作战的感觉</span></div><div><span style="font-size: 100%; ">不好受</span></div><div><br /></div><div>我不是机器人</div><div>不是超人</div><div><br /></div><div>无奈</div><div>失望</div><div>难过</div><div><br /></div><div>我累了</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div></div>佩诗^^http://www.blogger.com/profile/09686046098941172709noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-361644498379671258.post-17619122064420678262012-03-29T19:50:00.002+08:002012-03-29T20:52:16.149+08:00乱七八糟每天在那投诉东西做不完,没有时间,我很忙,也许真的不是时间问题,也许是自己没有好的time management,是我自己能力有限,资质不如人,花的时间要更多,头脑转不够快。。<div>我只是很想把事情做到最好,难道明明知道那有问题,还能置之不顾吗?</div><div>我只是想要做好对自己的基本要求。<br /><div><br /></div><div>emo什么?没有真正的原因。</div><div>到底什么让我这么难过?</div><div>所有的事情全部累积起来,我控制不了我的情绪。</div><div>对,还有我自己的情绪管理还是不合格。</div><div>强颜欢笑,我也累了。。</div><div>有人问,北京好不好玩?我也答说,好玩啊。。。</div><div>假期每个人都回家了,回家见家人,回家扫墓。。</div><div>我。。。也幻想自己也在家。。</div><div><br /></div><div>在这许多东西要赶出来的情况下,竟然有寂寞的感觉。</div><div>就算许多人在我旁边,还是有这种感觉。</div><div>突然很想念在宿舍以前的学长,他们曾经很厉害的赶走过我的寂寞。</div><div>我很想把在microsoft word里的全部字母填进我的心里,却像无底洞,没办法填满。</div><div>这应该是忙碌而不充实的生活吧。。</div><div><span style="font-size: 100%; ">班里每个人的样子都睡不好,吃不下。。</span></div><div>每个学生都有一大堆做不完的功课,我不应该不断的诉苦。。。 </div><div><br /></div><div>我想如果没有这个管道让我把自己的情绪化成一粒粒的文字的话,我应该会疯掉。。</div><div>我很想讲个不停,乱七八糟的乱讲一通,连续讲几个小时。。</div><div>当看到回复或回应后,讲不出口。。。</div><div>要知道,烦恼始终是自己的,重复的讲没有point。。也不能解决。。</div><div><br /></div><div>final year开始,有很多个在宿舍的晚上,一整个晚上我没有讲过一句话然后就跑去睡了,会吓坏我亲爱的室友吧。。</div><div>不是因为生气还是什么,其实是太想讲了,有一大堆事情想讲,可是我不知道要怎么讲,不想让自己的事情浪费别人的时间。。</div><div>我非常清楚自己,在那种时候一开口,眼泪腺也会跟着开。。</div><div><br /></div><div>打电话和妈聊天是最佳选择,最有效。</div><div>然而,我不敢打了,我害怕听到电话那厢问我几时才要回家了,我<span style="font-size: 100%; ">怕回答,我不忍心听到她失望的回应。。</span></div><div><span style="font-size: 100%; "><br /></span></div><div>也许在这个过程自己又变坚强了一点。。</div><div>我知道我不再是小孩子,虽然我还是很想依偎在爸妈身边撒娇,虽然我还是一样很爱哭。</div><div>放肆的大哭一场,眼泪滴在键盘上,朦胧的视线,<span style="font-size: 100%; ">乱七八糟的乱写一通。</span></div><div><span style="font-size: 100%; ">写完了,擦干眼泪,现实还是要面对,想家的心情还在。</span></div><div><br /></div></div>佩诗^^http://www.blogger.com/profile/09686046098941172709noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-361644498379671258.post-82223903693176419772012-03-27T21:17:00.004+08:002012-03-27T21:47:00.936+08:00无题这个时候出现的应该是关于北京的趣事。<div>那个暂且不post先。</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>那个trip有多好玩其实也还好。</div><div>在恐惧中的玩乐会有多好玩?</div><div><br /></div><div>后遗症有多大我就很清楚。</div><div>回来的第一个星期要交三个报告,那三个报告其实也不是我们project的报告,是在trip里临时加的tasks。。这也算了。。早已猜到那武则天不会让我们好过。。可是一个星期三个报告也真的有点让人窒息吧。。</div><div>不是随便两三句就完成,她的要求真的是觉得我们是神。。final year不代表真的什么都会,不然final year还需要lecturer吗?</div><div>还要thesis format的报告,我们全部人摸不着头脑。。</div><div><br /></div><div>真正project的报告,还没做。。。应该是说我们怎样能有时间做。。sem break 回来就要present,所以说,整个假期也要赶出来,所以说,我们的thesis不用做!</div><div>integrated project是一个subject可是却有这么多tasks,它霸道的占用了我们全部人的时间,去做一大堆根本不是我们范围的事情,就是因为一个霸道的lecturer。</div><div><br /></div><div>假期回来还有几个assignments要交,所以我应该要催眠自己,我不会累,我不用睡觉!</div><div><br /></div><div>害怕看到fb有notification,很怕看到有人post在group里说又有什么新的东西要交。。deadline是几时。。。</div><div>我真的怕了。。</div><div><br /></div><div>我也真的真的很想家了。。。我很想让泪腺崩溃。。我很想让自己任性一点。。</div>佩诗^^http://www.blogger.com/profile/09686046098941172709noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-361644498379671258.post-47785562938814694412012-03-14T17:33:00.002+08:002012-03-14T17:56:03.167+08:00mood before trip还剩一天,行李还没收,想到出国应该会很开心,可是谁知那几天会是在怎样的心情度过。<div>大家都好像完全没有那种mood,我连收拾行李都觉得烦。</div><div><br /></div><div>想到那九天thesis不用做,回来一定被那种臭压迫感压死。</div><div>想到回来又要赶报告和presentation,就闲料。</div><div>想到在那的第二天晚上就轮到我组present,根本不知道会呕出什么垃圾出来,肯定被shoot到不死也残废。</div><div>想到去的前一天还要去见prof就更死,肯定排山倒海的被压死。</div><div>在想着这么多事情的今天,还要收到这样被prof shoot的email,更糟糕。 (虽然那email是一次过send给全部人,没有指明道姓)</div><div><br /></div><div>大家都很累,都想着逃避,不想面对,想躺在床上什么都不管, 想出去玩到不要回。</div><div>可是,事实还是事实。</div><div><br /></div><div>尽管如此,还是要享受这个不是很能enjoy to the max的trip,最多ss。。。</div><div>毕竟我可是还了钱的@@</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>佩诗^^http://www.blogger.com/profile/09686046098941172709noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-361644498379671258.post-55311518471077463072012-03-11T17:26:00.005+08:002012-03-11T18:00:32.601+08:00Run for sight!<div style="font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-align: center; "><span><br /></span></div><span style="font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; "><span style="font-size: 100%;">11/3/2012--Run for sight @ putrajaya </span></span><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "></div><div style="font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-align: center; "><span><u><br /></u></span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">wonder why I still joined for this event at this such a critical and busy period.</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">I gonna to sit for a test and left 4 days for the preparation of Beijing!!</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">But I still choose to go.</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">Two reasons: It is a charity run and already paid for it!</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><div></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span><u><br /></u></span></div></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">The run start at 7am,its not too early.</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">but since the venue at Putrajaya we need to depart one hour earlier.</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">i set the alarm 4.30am because I want to rush for my things.</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">Yes, im able to wake up but less than half an hour i fall aslept again.</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">because I sleep late the night before around 1am</div><div style="font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 16px; "></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">.@@</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">5.45am someone keep calling me and luckily the ringtone can wake me up..@@</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">or else I think I just can run around UM varsity lake.</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><span style="font-size: 100%; "><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><span style="font-size: 100%; ">ok, back to the topic.</span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><span style="font-size: 100%; ">This event is organised by Glaucoma Society.</span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><span style="font-size: 100%; ">the runner is blind-folded and lead by his or he</span><span style="font-size: 100%; ">r partner to run for 5KM.</span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><span style="font-size: 100%; ">2 persons in a team.</span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><span style="font-size: 100%; ">The purpose is gives a chance for us to experience how is the feeling when we are live in the darkness.</span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><span style="font-size: 100%; "><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><span style="font-size: 100%; ">well, Im the one gt blind-folded since my partn</span><span style="font-size: 100%; ">er feel scare in darkness..haha</span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">the run is started and I am really feel unsecured at first.</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">I kept imagine anything in front of me, any obstacles cause me fall down, confused with left and right because you will totally fail to differentiate the direction when you are in darkness.</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><span style="font-size: 100%; ">Slowly, im used to it and able to run without too much worry.</span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><u><br /></u></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><span style="font-size: 100%; ">The person beside me keep saying left left, right right, stop, got people in front, now walk first, can start to run...</span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><span style="font-size: 100%; ">and obviously he is not really good in guiding..haha</span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><span style="font-size: 100%; "><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">Everything is depends on my feeling to sense it, what is surrounding me and what should i do for the next step.</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><span style="font-size: 100%; ">But the most important is trust the person who is leading you, not only trust but 100%.</span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><span style="font-size: 100%; ">is difficult to step out if there is any doubt, even 1%... </span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><span style="font-size: 100%; ">so thanks for the 45 minutes holding my ha</span><span style="font-size: 100%; ">nd and moved forward=)</span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><span style="font-size: 100%; "><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><span style="font-size: 100%; "><br /></span></div><div style="font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; font-size: 16px; font-family: Georgia, serif; "><img src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjAaoLTYbdCdviRZABlLIaMUYzBgXOZ6yfmOvAvQPRuTX-ncdxVWobMWk3GxXjPg46kyxDmT0rFqG_Ql0xl2OGJG22wGhYv-TKx2rnq9dKCv0p4DsbsdUbsPu5oh97xAjwU2pjKEtvXVpEa/s320/IMG-20120311-WA0001_%25E5%2589%25AF%25E6%259C%25AC.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5718575019519901314" style="color: rgb(0, 0, 238); text-decoration: underline; display: block; margin-top: 0px; margin-right: auto; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: auto; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 198px; height: 320px; " /></div><div style="font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-align: center; ">Run for sight=)</div><div style="font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-align: center; "><br /></div><div style="font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-align: left; ">p/s: time to continue my works after 20 minutes blogging..jiayou^^</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><span style="font-size: 100%; "><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><span style="font-size: 100%; "><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><span style="font-size: 100%; "><br /></span></div>佩诗^^http://www.blogger.com/profile/09686046098941172709noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-361644498379671258.post-11603762899457861602012-03-09T23:45:00.003+08:002012-03-09T23:46:25.409+08:00为明天<span style="font-size: 100%;"><iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="344" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/HVf3POUe6YE?fs=1" width="459"></iframe></span><br /><br /><div style="font-size: 100%; text-align: center; "><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.699219); color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">当昨天画上句点</span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; text-align: center; "><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.699219); color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">何不就让它悄悄无言 </span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; text-align: center; "><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.699219); color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">看今天更光鲜 </span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; text-align: center; "><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.699219); color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">别忘了还有明天 </span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; text-align: center; "><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.699219); color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">选你将来的志愿 </span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; text-align: center; "><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.699219); color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">一步步再慢慢去实现 </span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; text-align: center; "><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.699219); color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">不管路有多远有多险有多倦 </span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; text-align: center; "><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.699219); color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">在那很美很炫的童话境界 </span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; text-align: center; "><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.699219); color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">我还拿着青蛙王子的剑 </span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; text-align: center; "><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.699219); color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">来披荆斩棘驱恶除奸这感人画面 </span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; text-align: center; "><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.699219); color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">为幸福为明天 梦不一定要实现 </span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; text-align: center; "><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.699219); color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">心就会有更辽阔空间 </span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; text-align: center; "><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.699219); color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">用想象才能够飞得高飞得远 </span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; text-align: center; "><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.699219); color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">当昨天画上句点 </span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; text-align: center; "><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.699219); color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">何不就让它悄悄无言 </span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; text-align: center; "><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.699219); color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">看今天更光鲜 </span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; text-align: center; "><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.699219); color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">别忘了还有明天 </span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; text-align: center; "><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.699219); color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">选你将来的志愿 </span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; text-align: center; "><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.699219); color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">一步步再慢慢去实现 </span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; text-align: center; "><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.699219); color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">不管路有多远有多险有多倦 </span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; text-align: center; "><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.699219); color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">在这无悔无怨的内心世界 </span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; text-align: center; "><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.699219); color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">我遇见了美丽从容的脸 </span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; text-align: center; "><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.699219); color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">和酸甜苦辣意义长篇 </span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; text-align: center; "><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.699219); color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">但是我情愿为感动为明天 </span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; text-align: center; "><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.699219); color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">痛虽然有深有浅 </span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; text-align: center; "><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.699219); color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">泪擦干那就会好一点 </span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; text-align: center; "><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.699219); color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">风虽然看不见 </span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; text-align: center; "><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.699219); color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16px; text-align: left;">但自由无极限</span> </div><div style="font-size: 100%; text-align: left; "><span style="color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="line-height: 16px;"><br /></span></span></div><div style="text-align: left; "><span style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; "><span style="line-height: 16px; " >今天的辛苦,是明天的果实。</span></span></div><div style="text-align: left; "><span style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; "><span style="line-height: 16px;" >咬紧牙关,拒绝诱惑,暂时把爱玩的自己收起来。</span></span></div><div style="text-align: left; "><span style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; "><span style="line-height: 16px;" >梦想会有实现的一天。</span></span></div><div style="text-align: left; "><span style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; "><span style="line-height: 16px;" >就算在同一条跑道,速度比别人较慢,不管有多倦,也不许停止脚步,终点就在不远方。</span></span></div><div style="text-align: left; "><span style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; "><span style="line-height: 16px;" >为的就是“明天”。。。</span></span></div><div style="text-align: left; "><span style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; "><span style="line-height: 16px;" ><br /></span></span></div><div style="text-align: left; "><span style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; "><span style="line-height: 16px; " >P/s:继续未完成的事,加油!</span></span></div>佩诗^^http://www.blogger.com/profile/09686046098941172709noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-361644498379671258.post-30942157427573967532012-03-05T13:43:00.005+08:002012-03-05T15:17:05.287+08:00三月这一年,过得特别快。<div>真的有一眨眼的感觉。</div><div><br /></div><div>已经三月了!!</div><div>我不敢想象那一大堆的东西可以怎样完成?</div><div>一日复一日,恐惧加恐惧。</div><div><br /></div><div>该死的thesis。</div><div>打了无数次电话和email,没几个回复。</div><div><br /></div><div>“u try to call back tomorrow"</div><div>再打,也是同样的这句话。</div><div><br /></div><div>"i really dun have slot for u, busy lately"</div><div>也许对你们这些高高在上的大老板来说,我们学生的事情根本就是在浪费你们宝贵的时间,可是就是你们的拒绝让我烦恼不已。</div><div><br /></div><div>"u just email ur softcopy of question to us"</div><div>我要的是face to face interview,好,send了,每天开着email盼望着reply,没反应。。</div><div><br /></div><div>"the project manager is on leave"</div><div>放假我也没办法,可是真的很巧,几间公司的头都on leave,也许他们一起约定。</div><div><br /></div><div>"okay, we will try to arrange if available"</div><div>除了等,还是等,继续等。。</div><div><br /></div><div>结论是:拒绝人真的可以有千百个理由。</div><div>还好,我还没有碰钉子到头破血流。</div><div>只是,被请吃柠檬吃到胃痛。</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>senior都和我说,不用担心,到了最后一秒,一定做得完。</div><div>很庆幸,也很感激那两位在读master和phd的senior,让我看到一丝丝的阳光。</div><div><br /></div><div>我知道一定可以交的出来,只是那quality一定是烂到。。。</div><div>为的只是毕业。</div><div>我不想交一堆垃圾,所以常常都是临时还要挣扎,还要战胜生理和心理上的矛盾。</div><div>除了坚持,还是坚持。</div><div>话说如此,还是会想要偷懒,有时候什么都不想管跑去睡觉,毕竟人还是有累的时候。</div><div>这个时候,自我激励很重要,而家人永远都是最有能量的推动力。</div><div><br /></div><div>原本打算回家的,时间根本不允许。</div><div>电话那厢传来失望的声音,“以为你可以回来让我看下你,现在读书这么忙,那以后做工不就完全不用盼望你可以回来了。。。。”</div><div><br /></div><div>我除了安慰和解释,也无言了。。。</div><div>我也很想可以回家,我也很想有一点时间是可以享受心灵上完全的休息。</div>佩诗^^http://www.blogger.com/profile/09686046098941172709noreply@blogger.com0